Thank you both. I will say how strange it is to be able to know in my gut that I need to sort of… avoid it… this “relationship”… but then at the same time… the other part of me is like… “you don’t HAVE to avoid him”… “what’s the harm in indulging a little bit”… but the fact of the matter is… he’s pretty much my super potent drug… it’s sort of crazy… Inky, I know, at first it was a super careless way to fill the void that my husband and I did not share… then it turned into… I hate to say it… maybe a little bit of a rebound… even though I did really like him before everything hit the fan. I guess timing is everything and right now it’s a bad time. And I will eventually get over him and he will be a distant memory. And I will be able to make more rational decisions.

I ordered some things to make jewelry at home, a few books, I run and lift weights almost everyday… my kids keep me motivated… I’m pretty busy in life… the sunshine I’m loving.

Now I just need to be able to LOVE LOVE LOVE being with my new best friend…. MEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! Any suggestions? Books… etc. 🙂