sIts really easy to look at the past and say you should have done this or that, but it is 100% true that hindsight is 20/20. It is so hard to predict how the decisions we make today will impact us tomorrow, let alone years from now. I think one of the most important things to do is stay true to yourself, to be conscious to the things we are doing and on what motives we are operating. We have a funny way of going against ourselves when we operate on auto pilot or let our egos control our lives. You say about how you missed your chance to have a wife and children, well I can say that I have my own struggle along these lines as well. I’m not going to go into that, but sometimes you get what you thought you wanted and you realize that you are living some one else’s life and you were never honest with yourself or anyone, then you are in another world of regret. Sometimes it is a catch 22 and if you dwell on it is never going to end.

Making a living is an absolute necessity and sometimes it is hard to do, especially if we are really passionate about something but it isn’t something you can get rich doing. Not sure if you ever heard of guerilla marketing, it is book, basically you find different ways to get to the people doing the hiring at places. Its not being desperate, it is being confident and clever. I am not sure what your MA is in, but if it is your dream to work in saving the environment there are a lot of things you can do that you do get paid, but actually getting a job in those fields is another story. There are a lot of state and national parks where you could work, maybe not saving the environment, but maybe educating and tending to the environment. There are a lot of new things people are doing to do their part in saving the environment from biking to work, driving electric vehicles, installing solar panels there is obvious demands for people to work in various “green fields.” A lot of the jobs only require certification, you won’t get rich but it is a job where you are making a difference. You could help a farming co-op where local organic farmers need help. I am not going try to pretend to know a lot about this stuff, but just trying to throw out some suggestions because I myself am stuck as well spinning my wheels. I am just turning 30 this year and so many of the people I graduated with are in successful careers, but not me. Everyone tells me the same thing they tell you, and sometimes I think you have to listen, but even if you do don’t give up on what your dream is. Sometimes you need to work a job you hate in order to fund your dreams. My fear is that I will never get the time to work towards a dream once I have that job and that is the big negative.