Tracey,

Well… when the cycle gets tiresome enough, we build a yearning for freedom from it that lasts through the up times. Said differently, consider not waiting until you’re crying, sipping tea and exhausted. Be proactive! No excuses! Its your life sister, live it well.

Consider starting a loving-kindness meditation practice. When we collide with many experiences in our day to day life, our inner light, our feeling of appreciative joy, can begin to dim and flicker. This often results in a feeling of hopelessness and grief, like shadows creeping into a poorly lit room. As we sit and focus our attention on kind ideas, the inner light is rekindled, refreshed. Consider “Sharon Salzburg guided metta meditation” on YouTube, if interested.

Finally, Tracey, I know it can be a big bite to turn away from our habit of getting comfort from others, feeling anger that others don’t solve our issues with feeling cruddy, and overcoming the sense of powerlessness. Its tough, dear sister, but its also our path to freedom. Consider that there is a wise, peaceful, happy being inside each of us, often buried under a mountain of stress and discomfort. Learning to set aside the mountain, to rest in that center being, the inner Goddess-Tracey, only really happens when you give up the cosmic shell game of “where’s my protector”. Put your butt on a cushion, cultivate some warm feelings, and you’ll wonder why you stressed so much, why the blue skies ever looked so cloudy. Excuses? Ha! They’re like a bird saying she doesn’t have wings. Its inside you, sis, the knowledge and wisdom it takes to be free. Find it!

With warmth,
Matt