Hey Julia. I can’t exactly say I understand the situation because I’ve barely worked and maybe I’m much younger than you, but I think I have been in contact with people with similar attitudes. What has worked for me when dealing with those passive criticism that seems full of hatred and makes us feel so bad, even worthless and clueless sometimes, is to pay really close attention to what he/she’s trying to say. I’ve discovered that between those passive comments or remarks made unto you, it’s clear what people want to convey, but our desire for things being told directly on our faces blinds us into believing we can’t see exactly what is going on. Maybe trying to separate our personal fears and emotions towards that one person from the actual content of his/her words will help you clarify what is needed of you.

Also empathy always helps a bit when trying to understand the attitudes from that person.

I hope I’m being clear enough :$

Anyways, I’m sending you a big, big warm hug and a big ear-to-ear smile! You have the strength to go on right within yourself n.n I admire you because I’ve never wanted to get a job just because small, personal fears, and the single fact that you have one is really worthy!

🙂