Zaica,

What do you want to do? Set aside what family and husband and in laws want. What do you want? Do that. Or if you dont know, perhaps take a bath, meditate, nurture, grow some space inside you, detaching from everyone else, and see if you can see where you’d like to take your life. Then, do things that seem like they’ll help that path come alive. Its your journey, sister, and the right path is where your desire aligns with your heart. Your heart is fine, brilliant, clear singing. But what do you want to do?

Said differently, you seem like you’re trying to please everyone around you. That just never works. If we turn inward, work to see our heartfelt desires met, we please ourselves, develop inner peace. The people around us either see that, appreciate that, and love us for it, or they’re not worth our time (unless we’re trying to help them wake up, hug them, scrub floors alongside them, or what not.) They think you should do this or that? “Not mine, feels off, thanks though”, move on. Trust your heart, its open.

Namaste, sister, be proud of that tender heart, you’re a jewel.

With warmth,
Matt