Don’t be so hard on yourself. Accept yourself for who you are. He made his own choices and decided not to tell you anything because he knows what your reaction would be. Which basically means he has gotten to know you very well and unfortunately these things happen when a couple is very close to each other. It seems like he is very young and you know men mature at a much less rate than we women do and that is why he chose not to tell you, he didnt want to hear it.When someone we love lies to us, we feel very hurt and disappointed because we TRUSTED them. We all deal with forgiveness in very different ways. What I have learned about forgiveness is that it truly makes you a much happier person but it has to come from within. When you forgive you have to be prepared to completely forgive and not throw something in the other person’s face later on. You have to learn to trust yourself and let go of that doubt that the person will do it again. You can also forgive and see how you react to your relationship once the healing process begins between the two of you. You can at least say to yourself that you tried if it doesnt work for you. It seems like he is very young and he may have his own problems to deal with. Truly loving each other means talking it out.