Oh trust me i know how difficult it is to not be overwhelmed by the fact that you feel alone.

People can feel alone even when they are in a room full of people and feel complete when they are by themselves but do you ever wonder how they can do this? I went through the same thing, lost my friends, my job and my fiance all in a matter of months. I am at some fault in all of this now i know but it took a lot of self discovery to know what was really going on but you won’t find out until you are ready. I found myself doing the same thing as you, waiting for friends response that will take days to come then i finally started depending only on myself.

Can i suggest a book that helped me? it is called “the power of now” by Eckhart Tolle. it teaches you how to focus on the moment and really apply the old saying “taking it one day at a time”. It is very difficult to find a way “out” but knowing you can count on yourself it is far more valuable than knowing who you can count on.

i understand you don’t want to take pills for depression and i respect that although sometimes we do need professional help to give us that little “push” to get things started. I myself did take those pills but promised myself that i will only do it for short while to give me the strength i so much needed but have you ever considered looking into natural remedies? there are natural remedies to help with insomnia, anxiety and of course depression. If you are willing to get things started i suggest start with your health because it starts with YOU and the most basic thing is your health then everything else comes after. think about it we cant do it all alone.