I agree with Alpal, I think you are great just the way you are and everybody else is crazy. (LOL) The problem is that your ego is getting the best of you and you have stopped listening to that inner voice which is the true you. There is nothing wrong with you but your ego is telling you otherwise and you are starting to believe it. Try meditating and silencing your mind for a bit. From what I am reading, this will become difficult at first but I guarantee that it will help. Also it seems like you just feel like you dont fit in, and guess what? you’re just an older and wiser soul in a young body that is all. Keep following your passion such as writing, poetry and other artistic gifts that this universe has given you. The moment you accept yourself for who you are, the world around you will begin to change and love you the way you are. You are a precious gift that the world needs so take it and live it girl. You are special. Therapy does not work with you because there is nothing wrong with you. Believe it.