Aww Irene, thank you for sharing about yourself and how you’re coming out of it. You know what I always did before this most recent break-up? Instead of being comfortable alone and learning to go after a meaningful relationship, I would go for the guy who really liked me, not that I liked him that much :/ It was my way of not risking getting hurt, if they left I wouldn’t be too sad. And while they were there I felt I had someone who cared, I wasn’t “unworthy.” Now after my divorce I wanted to break that pattern and go for a guy I really liked, but I was so focused on my fear that like you mentioned I too was full of insecurities. No relationship can really progress that way, at some point people have to be removed so you get back on the path (whichever it may be). I’m tired of running from myself and have decided to really fall in love with ME, make her shine, and once she’s comfortable in her own skin & on her own she will be able to share herself. I won’t lie, I still miss my ex, love him the same, and would love for him to come back. But I get it, it wasn’t our time and now my time is to be dedicated solely to my children and myself. It’s as if I’m nurturing 3 (my 2 sons and my inner wounded child). You are beautiful as well Irene and I wish you the best on this journey to freedom so you may find the best in you and attract the same in a man. You are a warrior. Love and light!