Thank you guys so much for your valuable inputs!
Amanda, I did think about it and found that though this train of thought started recently, it is pretty deep rooted. So I probably should take it seriously or should at least give it a chance.
I tried thinking of a scenario of not listening to this voice, of shutting it down but I experience this claustrophobia, this nausea that just makes me feel absolutely terrible and terrified.
So I don’t really think that that is an option.
But as you pointed out, I might just need a more unique outlook to medicine, considering the fact that pursuing a career in medicine does seem like the right thing to do. So maybe I just need to find a way to play around with them till I find a plan which works.
Heather, I absolutely adore Amanda’s and your viewpoints and advice in this matter and I hope that I can introspect and try to use your tips to figure out how to deal with this restlessness. First self discover and then self create. talk to people around, take a few classes, I ended up getting really helpful tips! =)
Amanda, I completely understand the part about needing permission to listen to your inner voice. It is just so chaotic with everyone having their own opinions that I am really starting to doubt mine.
But at the same time, I seem to feel guilty too, about not being grateful enough with all the amazing things I have already been blessed with. Am I just being a spoilt brat right now?
BenzRabbit, I would probably still be inclined towards these things if it still wasn’t about the money, so I’m still confused.
But seriously guys, thank you so much for just listening. <3
It means a lot!
Thank you! =)