Stephie,

It is very normal to have a moment like this, where the old path seems not to fit, not to bring satisfaction. However, the unknown of changing direction is also scary, it removes that safety net, like the shell cracking open on a baby bird, or a seed germinating. In the shell feels safe, but also confining.

As we question here, look more directly at how to grow a path that gives us that sense of inspiration, of appreciative joy, of friendship, first we have to come to accept that fear of the unknown. Not running from it, wanting it to be gone, wanting the net back, but simply accepting that the unknown could bring anything, and not knowing “the next thing” brings anxiety.

But then we can befriend that anxiety, sit with it, nurture ourselves, make space around it. Not let it pull us in, such as following a train down the tracks. Rather, we notice our fear, the feeling of groundlessness, and turn toward self nurturing. Letting go of the inner push to “find the answer, find the next step”, and make the nurturing the next step. Setting down the plans for the new path and the results of the old path, and just resting, relaxing. Perhaps hop in a tub with candles, meditate, do yoga, walk in nature, or anything that helps us relax, wake back up, reconnect with our inner happiness.

As we do this, the big questions are answered through little actions. Rather than “plotting a major, epic course change”, we naturally begin to notice where our unique skills can help ourselves and those around us, and move toward that, follow those heartfelt inspirations. That’s when we rest comfortably with who we are, and where we are. Be it web development, or any other career that you feel drawn toward. There will be Stephie, smiling, caring for herself and the world around her.

With warmth,
Matt