Thank you both for the kind words. Both posts are helpful. I have tried counselling before and although it did help I almost felt I was taking up their valuable time for my minor worries and everything they said I logically agreed with but not sure if I truly believed it in my heart.

I always feel as though I am stuck between the feeling of I should be living for the day as you never know when life will take a turn for the worse but not being able to do this as tomorrow is still there so I cant for example blow all my money on a great holiday as that would then put me us in debt.

If I am honest I am feeling a little more hopeful today, the sun is shining and I have listened to some upbeat music and I am seeing friends tomorrow. Hopefully I can hold onto this feeling.