Hi AniaK:

Let me begin by saying you are not alone in feeling the way you do, and many of us ‘talk to GOD’ 🙂

The reason you feel lost is because you are an ‘old soul’ and have been here before !

Please realize we come here on different ‘journeys’. It is not fair to yourself to compare your path to anyone else – society has groomed us to do so and it takes a lot of will power to break that thought process.

It is ok that you haven’t found your ‘calling’ yet. Sometimes the answers come to us when we least expect them.

You are only 32 and things can turn around for the better in no time. Don’t give up on yourself !

Here is the link to a simple article that may help you:
http://www.wikihow.com/Find-Your-Life’s-Purpose

GOD Bless !