Hi, I wanted to lend an olive branch to you. Your not the only one who feels like this. Your not crazy. There are times when I look around and want karate chop people in the throat (ha!) It just sounds like you are becoming more aware of your surroundings. It’s okay to be picky. It’s actually a great thing. Your not selfish. Surround yourself with things that bring you joy and make you a better person. I feel your struggle is that you are just trying to find that balance. Peace is within you. No matter how loud, crazy, dramatic, or horrible your life may seem, you can always find peace residing right within the chambers of your heart and soul. Don’t get hung up on finding all the answers to life. You will be just sitting on the merry go round with more questions than answers. Accept things exactly how they are and for what they are. This will free you from your thoughts. This will help you find inner peace. All you have to do is start changing your thoughts. The world seems pretty grim at times I admit but we are here! That is something to celebrate isn’t it? It is better than being 6 feet under. Live your life. Enjoy every moment. It truly is a gift to get up every morning. Let the thoughts of negativity come and go. Acknowledge them but don’t feed into them, let them starve and start feeding into the things that bring happiness into your life. Think of your thoughts like a garden. You have to constantly weed out any negative thoughts in order for the good thoughts to flourish. Soon you will see all of your efforts manifest into your everyday life. It takes effort. That is why you see people walking around miserable most of the time. It is easier to complain rather than change the situation. You can change how you react to anything. I hope this helps somehow. I am someone who has been in your shoes. All you have to do is start. Don’t give up on the world. Everyone is a work in progress. Meet them where they are. Everyone you encounter was put in your path for you to learn or gain something from the situation. You’re not lost. You are just trying on new skin. Tailor it to make it fit just for you. Good Luck on your journey.