You are doing a great thing as you are easing your stress by writing it down. During my rough phases, I used to write down my feelings at the end of the day because sometimes we are not able to emote our expressions in a better manner. In that case, the pen and page are our best friends. As a friend, I would suggest that you must not hate yourself because everyone is gifted with an unique element. Don’t let other people will invade your peaceful area. I wish you a happy life.