Hello all, thank you for your kind words! I needed a moment to digest everything but I am feeling much calmer now and I have followed the advice to see a counsellor. I think I am very much bogged down with studying which I know isn’t my *thing* so I will try to step back from studying a little as you suggest Deep Thinker. Sal Jade I will definitely take a look at the books you recommend and I am open to the healing you suggest. I think there’s often overlooked wisdom in these things. Moongal your advice is extremely helpful thank you. I will get the physical checked out and see if my diet is having an impact as you say Inky. Thank you for your kind words Chris. And I will make sure I am doing some fun and physical things as you suggest Tripti. And thank you lightsource – I agree that working on my self esteem will probably help the other things I am feeling too.

thank you all for making me feel a less alone and more hopeful. I have saved all your messages to read again! xo