Who knows what normal is really…
Some scars will never fully fade away.
I was with someone for three years.
A week after we split up, they entered a new relationship, seemingly out of nowhere.
It was a real head **** because just 2 weeks before the final break-up, my ex was saying ‘Please don’t end this. I love you so much. Can’t you see how much I want this to work?’.
That was July last year, and due to my anxiety and depression I’ve always struggled to let go.
It was quite traumatic and she told me she’d cheated on me.

I’ve been with someone since March now and they’re amazing, but for some reason I still get upset thinking about my ex and how I’ll never talk to them again. Things didn’t end good. It’s odd and very difficult to let go of someone you were so close to. I still have to drive past her house every day, and my head seems to turn off it’s own accord, and sees her bedroom light on. She’s literally 3 minutes away, by car. I feel like I need to get away to distance myself from all the bad memories, but I’d struggle to support myself (I live with my parents). It’s scary to think nearly a year and a half have passed and I feel as if I’ve not progressed with my life at all, even though on paper I did some things I never would have thought I could this year (like see my favourite band, Blink 182, live in London – albeit I had a lot of anxiety).

Hopefully in time, we’ll become stronger and better people.
I do remind myself that I had all the same problems with my ex.
She was very stress-inducing and we just weren’t a good match. She changed when she went to University and wanted to go out clubbing every weekend. That was never me, as I’m really introverted for the most part.
But, the past has fond memories and it can be scary to think they’re gone for good.
We just have to focus on the present and making more good memories now.