I think if I talked to him about it all and he still says no, then maybe I could let it go.I’ve tried in the past, but for some reasons these dreams will come out of nowhere.

We spoke two days ago, well texted. Over a couple hours we caught up and it felt like old times when we’d talk. He single, I’m single. I might be reading far too much into it, but he sent a “;)” for the first time in years. ha ha who knows?

He knows about the condition, but I never told him about the mental effects. Just the physical ones.

I keep hearing peoplr say “and ex is an ex for a reason”, but should I say screw it and let him know?