Sometimes, I have no clue why I’m feeling depressed and low.
Maybe a lack of sleep and other things come into it, but I can fluctuate a lot from day to day.

Today I feel a bit rubbish about myself.
I have a competency based interview tomorrow for a part-time job that I want.
I’m not very familiar with these interviews, but it’s based on examples and my brain is usually in such a fog that I find it very difficult to recall past experiences in detail. Sometimes it’s hard just to speak properly.

They will ask me to describe situations where I worked well in a team, adjusted to a situation, managed my time effectively, gave good customer service, etc. While I’m sure I’ve done all these things, I just can’t seem to think of anything that would be a good answer and I’m worried I’ll mess up. I also am terrible at lying, so I don’t want to make up scenarios.

Going back to the main bulk of my depression though…
I think a lot of it is physical.
I had some cheese pasta today and felt sick almost straight away after eating it.
This happened the other day, so I think dairy could be a problem for me.
I’d already been feeling off this morning, and seem to have a lot of nausea and headaches.

Some may say this is down to anxiety but I have these issues more often than not and there have been days at home the last week where I’ve had no reason to feel anxious. I just wake up feeling ‘off’ physically.
I’ve been back and forth to doctor’s over the years of dealing with my problems (which I still believe stemmed from taking ‘Accutane’).
The blood tests show everything to be okay.

I’ve had other tests through an alternative health practitioner and she diagnosed me with pretty severe adrenal fatigue and, more recently, some gut issues. I guess that explains things, but it always seems like nothing works for me like it’s supposed to and this is where I start getting worried and hopeless, because I feel like I’m destined to suffer with health problems until the day I die.

Adrenal fatigue can cause allergies, but as it’s mainly caused by stress… it’s a tricky scenario as I’m less able now to deal with stresses because my body and mind are overworked and not running as they should.

:/