So much of what you said Maggie hit home. I never thought I’d be the girl that would be with someone that cheated on me. Truth be told he didn’t tell me. His counsellor told him that it was his burden to carry. I found out through other means. It has taken me a long time to come to peace with that.

But now I’m here with as you say so much good stuff and in the last while we’ve come leaps and bounds. We’ve shared alot more of our lives; the people, the moments, the not so nice truths. All of which has brought us closer together. So I feel torn, that we’re making progress but I haven’t been able to shake of the thoughts I don’t know if he has resolved why his ego needs attention from others. Or am I being naive? Is this what all humans need? But he needs it more?

I love him with all my heart, that is while I’m still here. But I am strong enough to know that I can live without him but for some reason I can’t say goodbye. I have moments that I feel I can and I talk, think of him and I feel like we’re so connected and why would I turn my back on that. But he does deserve the respect and if I can’t past this, that isn’t fair to both of us.