Kelsey,

I agree, Maria gave great advice. I wanted to also offer something to think about. Sometimes it’s good to make a plan that is do-able. Whether it’s ultimately the direction you want, any direction is a good direction to get you started in life. I think when you don’t know what you want, it’s good to just get out there and start doing something. I know you’ve been trying, that’s not what I mean. I mean something solid like the Peace corps. Are you in the U.S.? You can pick what part of the world you want to work in. You can pick what type of project/work you want to help with. The all around benefits are crazy good. You will generate a deep sense of pride and respect for yourself and from those you meet throughout your life for your service. This is a list of benefits from their website, peacecorps(dot)gov This is just an idea. A lot of people use this for a stepping stone when they are in the exact position you are in right now. It opens doors and helps you get an idea of where you want to go from there, moving in a positive direction. No, I am not a recruiter, just wanted to offer an idea to possibly help you off rock bottom. Here’s their benefits listing:

What Are the Benefits?

Peace Corps is a life-defining leadership experience you will draw upon throughout your life. The most significant accomplishment will be the contribution you make to improve the lives of others. There are also tangible benefits, including the following Peace Corps provisions:
Certain public student loans may be eligible for deferment or for Public Service Loan Forgiveness by your lender
Perkins loans may be eligible for partial cancellation by your lender
A “readjustment” allowance of more than $8,000 (pre-tax) upon completion of service
Language, cross-cultural, and technical training
Travel to and from country of service
A monthly living and housing allowance
Full medical and dental coverage
48 paid vacation days
Unique graduate school opportunities
Leave for family emergencies
Transition and job support and social networking after service
Advantages in federal employment
Opportunities for short-term assignments through Peace Corps Response
No fee to participate