Thankyou for replying with your kind words. I have reread my post and realise I was rambling slightly, due to being upset I think.

I have recently looked at bipolar as mutual friends and family from both sides mentioned that and other personality disorders, narcissistic I think was one, and to be honest he has multiple and strong traights of all.

Some days I feel at peace with the reality, accept it for what it is and others I feel weak and tired. I don’t want to be better so I’m trying my hardest to let go of resentment towards him and the situation, including the what ifs and the what were meant to bes and some days I can’t move past the Broken promises and the fact my future is altered.

It’s ironic as I try to live all aspects of my life knowing they are ever changing, however I seem to have excluded my relationship from this rule.