Will,

Thank you for your response. I agree with your solution of ending things. A reason I am hesitant is because I do love this guy, invested a lot into the relationship and I guess I am holding onto the idea of things being different, better between us once he returns. I don’t want to break things off while he is in such a vulnerable place, being deployed and the possibility of not knowing if he is okay during this time scares me. Cutting off all contact is frightening. I am once again caring more about his feelings and well being than my own I suppose. I don’t think I am able to keep this going, I can’t continue to give and do so on his terms. He will look to someone else to provide these things and I there will be no relationship, so either way, it will end I feel.

If he comes back, things may even be worse, the treatment and his mental stability. Am I prepared to deal with this? So do I ignore the past and wait this out, or do I end things and feel like a horrible person for doing so…no matter the decision, I will suffer.