Hi Doreen
I can relate to your stuff. Sometimes, I also feel to write something creative. But, I am not able to concentrate well. I have realized that we must not put pressure on us. Otherwise, we will not be able to suck the creative juices. We can’t force anything in our lives. We have to understand the natural flow.
If you are not interested in a particular thing, you can’t generate love for that thing. There is no need to feel bad about anything. There is nothing right or wrong. You just have to prioritize your preferences.
It is just my opinion. Wishing you a happy life, buddy.