So much insight.. that is really great anita. I have started coming to those exact conclusions and realize how much more at peace I am when I am focused on my own healing, am reading about my own insecurities and low-selfesteem and lower-than-ideal levels of self-love and confidence. But then this thought will pop in my head or I will go on social media or do more forum searches for dating a divorced man, etc. and then the focus goes to him and I am miserable.

My problem and thing I want to resolve, now that I am aware of what my issues are, is what do I do now? How do I not be this way any longer? I have only gone to this therapist twice now and see her again next week, so hopefully by then I will know if she is really going to be helpful and maybe I will inquire about what you just asked me. The first session I mostly went over my issues while I was still with my boyfriend and then had to cancel for this vacation so I didn’t see her until afterwards. Oddly, I had a few days initially where I was more relieved, somewhat at peace, and one some days even sort of positive! And I happened to see her on a positive day where the direction went in other areas– like my dissatisfaction at work, which was helpful, but now I need to refocus on these problems.

Thank you for so poignantly clarifying these things and helping redirect me on a path to really get to the true root of my problem! Do you have any books or reading suggestions on these areas? I love giving myself homework 🙂 And it’s nice to retreat into nature by myself and work on some self-healing.