Dear Rose Tattoo:
It’s been some time since your past post here. How are you today (when you read this)? My response to your original post: unlike a previous commentator to your post, I will not predict your future and say that you WILL find your prince charming. Don’t even know if there is such a thing. People do say things like that when they have no way to tell what will happen. But I can tell that you are probably in a loop: feeling badly about yourself–> getting involved with an unavailable, hurtful man –> feeling worse about yourself –> getting involved with another hurtful man, etc. Stopping this pattern will help. This is reasonable for me to predict, I believe. No doubt you feel unloveavble, or felt that way or often feel this way. Only through a safe, healthy relationship- with a good, effective psychotherapist- or otherwise, can you heal that wound inside, with time and lots of patience. The belief that you are unloveable stems from not having had a relationship in your life where you were truly loved. This is a relational problem and it can heal only in the context of a relationship, not necessarily romantic, but a relationship with a quality, caring, trustworthy, healthy enough person. I hope you find that.
Take Care:
anita