@Anita You nailed it! Thank you for reminding me again that healing is not easily done which i realized as i have been trying for over an year to get out of the trauma. The other day while having a casual conversation with a matured woman (she was abused like me as a child by her parents) who told me that “Dysfunction breeds dysfunction”. She went on to tell me that though she was a better parent to her children, at times she involuntarily followed the pattern she has seen in her family. Her words resonated in my mind. Honestly, i can’t think of me doing the same to my kids in future. Still i wish to eliminate any demons in me. By the way you are right about making a new plan for my healing process. My therapist also believes that i don’t need any medicines but a change of environment as an easily affected by my parents negativity. Thank you for your time.

@free soul Thank you very much for the tips. I’m sorry i looked like a very self centered whiner in the above post. I understand there is always someone who is going through worst than you. Today after my first post i was trying to control my nose bleed and was very low. Then i came across the news about Iraqi women and their torture at the hands of IS. I always volunteer charities and looking forward for a day when i can independently work for the well being of those who are less privileged.