Hi xevv,

Please DO NOT harm yourself – suicide seems like a solution when the mind is overwhelmed but it leaves behing a trail of severe destruction for others – specially kids !

Please read this short article – here is the link:
http://www.wikihow.com/Cope-With-Emotional-Pain

Also, there seem to be complex issues from your childhood/past that need to be resolved – this should help you get started:
http://www.yellowbrickprogram.com/index.html

ps: one of the easiest things you can do that will help you feel better is to take a walk – a simple 10 minute walk outside around the block is good enough. It does wonders for the mind when you are feeling overwhelmed ! If you can do 20 minutes that is great – if not, just do 10 minutes a day !!

I pray your angels guide you forward.

GOD bless !!