Dear Cecia:
I am happy for you for having two good people as parents. I agree- you did get lucky this way. You describe your father as kind and caring- and I understand he is and was consistently kind and caring- oh, how I wished I had that. No wonder you feel so scared for his well being. It is so very scary to face the loss or future loss of someone kind and caring, someone who mean so much to you still.

Unfortunately your fears are not about delusions: illness and death are real, pain is real. It scares me a lot. It scares me too. The few people I care about- those things scare the hell out of me… Did you talk to your father about this fear? Hold his hand and tell him how you fear for him… you may find comfort in connecting with him about this fear.

I read somewhere: “Every one of us has to find a way to live with fear.” Some fears cannot be connected to distorted thinking as in fear of spiders or open spaces… disease, pain, death are real.

Hope you find comfort still in your father…
anita