Thank you Anita. And I love you for elaborating this for me. Yes its an itch inside, every time I get to see something, which I find its not correct, I get this ripple and the discomfort, feels like asking a question, earlier I used to ask instantly but now I have learned it brings more and more of the fights and quarrels, so I hold them whenever its possible, I keep thinking over them, but yeah somehow I believe your body language or may be the vibes I sent out. They get an idea about it that something is wrong. Thank you so much Anita, I love you for this. Deep inside I know something is wrong with me only, because of the forced stress I am dealing with.. Its not required at all, but my over thinking, or how my husband was in the past. I everytime relate all the instances with that, which is not right. I should be more concerned of how he is with me in the present. How he stands for our commitments in the present.
I am working on myself. trying not to live with fear because FEAR is just an illusion and LOVE is the only real thing. So why not to live in REALITY. I think i have to give up the habbit of controlling others.. You cannot control every act of the person. the Expectation of them behaving in certain way hurts me the most. I have already been through alot. I do not want to lose this relation either. I know he is loyal to me, but the expectation of them behaving in certain way, or responding to situations in different way or I would say in our Way makes it difficult.
Thank you Anita,
Probably change in the country, not many friends here . I wanted to speak my heart out without being judged by anyone. That how stupid and possessive I can be for my husband…

Once again Thank you Anita for listening to what I am going through.