Dear Jerris:
This is not the time to figure things out. You are distressed and down on yourself. Breathe. Calm down, slow down. Your brain is full with agitations, like ripples in a pond. Overly thinking now only creates more turbulance in the water. You need to stop this kind of thinking and focus on your breath or sounds until you are calm. Then come back to the computer….

These are the facts:

You have a BA in Political Science.
You are almost done with teh coursework required to get your teaching certification.
You are looking for a full time teaching job.
Your health insurance will be terminated in 2016.
You are in debt of $4050.

The rest is ineffective overactivity of the mush of neurons in between your ears.

Lots and lots of people do not know what they are doing. Most people stumble into this or that. It is onloy the very small minority of people who have a clear and consistent idea of what they want to do “when they grow up.” It is not human nature to have a lifetime clear motivation and plan… Most people stumble in the dark or change directions again and again.

When you are calm your thinking is at its best. Deal with the facts and focus on what is in front of you.

Your goal right NOW is to get a teaching job: take small steps, one day at a time. Plan only one day at a time, one hour at a time, if needs be. You can only do what you can do- look for the job, you cannot control the job market and other people. If you don’t get a job-it will not be the end of the world! Just focus on what you CAN do and be willing to live with the worst case scenario (no teaching job, teaching certification on hold, no health insurance (free clinics?) and the loan ON HOLD. Big deal. No, really, big deal!

Regarding traveling and what else, deal with it LATER. For now, look just at what is in front of you
anita