Dear sweet Sweet:
i can see how you would need friends. You are so full of life, full of thoughts and emotions and you need people to socialize with, more than the time you have available with your husband. Girlfriends- that would be so nice for you. I like the way you are dealing with your husband not texting you, being less reactive, less obsessvie, not taking it personally, thinking it means he doesn’t love you enough.

Regarding others having it worse… it reminds me what I read recently. 99% of the air molecules around you can be fresh air, but if there are only a few stinky molecules, that is enough to stink up the whole room. When we have a disatisfaction it can fill up our whole mind. It often does, human nature. it is not only you. Even the hungry people you are referring to, if they get all the food they need and want, most likely they will find a smaller reason to be disatisfied.

When you feel sad and lonely, please don’t be hard on yourself. Don’t add misery to the sadness by thinking: I shouldn’t feel this way. Let yourself feel whatever it is that you feel. What you feel doesn’t make you a good or bad person. What you do matters, can harm or help yourself and another. So feel what you feel, call it what it is, accept it, compassionately. If you had a child that was sad, would you tell the child: ‘You shouldn’t feel sad! You have no reason to feel sad- not when children elsewhere are hungry”- no, no- i hope you wouldn’t abuse a child like that. And i hope you don’t abuse yourself like that. be kind to yourself.

Later:
anita