Dear Sweet
What if when you are calm, you read through our communication here in this forum and maybe take notes as things, hopefully become more clear. As you read your writings and mine look, calmly, at what is speaking to you as truth and calmly, think of what you can do that can be more effective than what you have been doing. You are panicking, are you, about the relationship getting worse. Maybe you want to quit your job and that is a pressure in your mind. You probably need clarity, clear thinking, priorotizing what you need in your life as it is. What you need to address, to work on. Then taking small steps toward what is most important.

The distance you are experiencing in your relationship can most likely (I think) be reversed. It takes doing something different for that to happen. I wrote suggestions but it is up to you to pick what you want from what I wrote, find out answers that are already in you, achieve that calm you need etc.

This is the big weekend- I wonder how you will deal with him sleeping somewhere else (causes you distress, doesn’t it?) And did you decide if and where you are going to spend the weekend? I will check the forum this evening (in 12 hours or so) and Saturday and will write you back if I find your post. Take care of yourself.
anita