Dear Blessing,
I am sorry to know about your suffering. I can understand how it feels, we all have our shares to deal with in life. We all have to go through one or the other tests in life. Such is life, I have had my own share of suffering, but i still believe in GOD. Nobody was there with me, I dealt with it on my own, but in one or the other form GOD sent someone to prove that he is there, I am being looked after. No matter I am attached to my mother and father, I suffered because of their too much for my elder brother, but that’s fine. They were bound to do their karma. My belief is our 99% of misery is because we are busy thinking about other’s deeds and others karmas. And thats the reason for our pain. I know this sounds bit saint. But it makes the journey easier. We have our karmic baggage which we have to get over in this life. This is going to be my 3rd abortion, reason for that, I am not prepared, I do not want to bring any new life into this planet till I am fully prepared for it, to take additional responsibility. do not want to repeat the same what my parents did. But I believe who so ever is destined to take a birth, will come to this world no matter what. God has its own way of doing things, and he finds his own way.
I know life is like that, we have challenges to deal with but that’s how it is. No one knows why is like that, we just have to live our share of life, with all the good deeds. God is like an accountant, he keeps a balance sheet and according to our deeds and actions he does the accounting. Anyways too much of GOD. I used to do prayers and these days, ever since I have got job it has been reduced alot , infact reduced to almost zero. I feel like doing but life here keeps you busy. We are in melbourne.
Life is like that, I have had a tough journey too before marriage, but that’s how it was planned, I did my share of job, that’s how it is. I know its tough to understand sometimes or quite often I also give up because I cannot bear such stupid things. I keep finding reasons. I sometimes curse GOD as well, because he is the only one, who has seen the real side of me. REAL ME, atleast he is the only who can read my conscious. He should not let me suffer like that. But All i know we cannot describe life…

Coming back to my health, I am taking the appointment for next Wednesday, hope all goes well. I will take 2-3 days off to deal with it. And i will be going for medical one, I hate surgeries and moreover the medical one is quite a natural one.

I am looking forward to hear from you.
my email is : divineshweta3@gmail.com

Thanks Blessing