Thats the problem, I do not think its bad for me.. I in fact think m happiest when i talk to him.. and i never want that happiness to go away.. no mattter how rude he is to me.. i can never ever think its bad.. i m completely blind to facts … but the fact is that whatever happens i always feel happiest when he is happy and I think i will never find such happiness … He s has some problems but i know how sad he must be.. and i worry.. i want to stop worrying about him!! i want to start thinking for myself first before i think for him… i want to stop feelings the need to protect him and make him happy… how do i get angry at him so that i can be selfish for myself?