Thank you inky. It still find it crazy that I did manage to forgive him when it came to cheating. I never in my life thought I’d be that girl that would stay with a cheater and I’ve managed to come to peace with the fact that it happened. I’ve had to rebuild my self worth and it has taken a year to rebuild our relationshp to where I think we genuinely appreciate each other.
But I am choosing to focus on now not whether to stay with a cheater or not but I want to make sure I’m with someone who is choosing to love me, choosing me everyday not because it is comfortable or because they think they should or they are too lazy to find someone else because they believe their life is better with me in it and want to build a future together.
That is is what I think I’m worth.
Your advice on pushing the subject is what I need to do. Assumptions make fools out of all of us. I suppose what I’m struggling with is making sure what I know what answers I’m willing to accept for good or bad, just making sure there is no inbetween.
Though I run this site, it is not mine. It's ours. It's not about me. It's about us. Your stories and your wisdom are just as meaningful as mine. 