Dear deusexmachina:

My input:

1. Regarding the “serene happiness granted to many people I know, and millions (billions? of others”- not in my world. A very small percentage of people, VERY small, experience “serene happiness” on an ongoing basis, or often. This is what YOU see but not what is. This is what I saw before I woke up to reality and saw what is out there.

2. Many of the suggestions widely accepted by society are damaging to one’s healing process. One such is to not feel sorry for yourself. It is unhealthy to not feel empathy for one own suffering. Self empathy is necessary, not something to scorn.

3. You are suffering from the affliction of billions- not enough love. You did not receive the love you needed as a child and that unmet need, unmet valid need is what is hurting you.

4. Your intellect is good. You write like the intelligent person that you are, but your awareness of your emotions is what lags way, way behind your intellectual understanding.

5. What does your user name mean? deu- sex- machina???

anita