Marcus – whether you know it or not, you’re actually doing it right. What you call “copping out” is actually following your heart, what your gut is telling you, rather than doing what other people expect you to do. Do more of it – cop out more, please people less, follow your own gut – that’s the surest way to passion and purpose.

There’s two ways to get closer to your purpose / calling in life:
1. To follow the beeline of where the honey is – where you feel drawn, where your joys are, what makes you smile, what makes you feel alive. If you don’t know this yet. Start experimenting. Create a ritual for yourself to do at least one (new) thing each day that will make you smile, laugh or feel purposeful. Since you said helping people is one activity you like, maybe start doing one thing to help someone each day – not just money, but maybe helping an old friend who’s in trouble, buying someone coffee, or helping kids in highschool, etc. You only have to look and you’ll find your one thing for the day. The point of this exercise is for you to learn what brings you joy. Following your joys is the shortest way to finding your purpose.

2. Let go of what doesn’t serve your purpose – you’re already doing this by “copping out”, letting go of the internship that doesn’t feel right in your bones. Continue to do this. Stop doing things to please other people, out of obligation or expectation. “When I let go of who I am, I become what I might be.” (Lao Tzu). Take the time to know what you might be. Take all the time you need. That’s what your life is about – to become who you truly are!

Namaste, Saiisha
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