Dear Anita!

Thank you for your kind words. It means a lot to hear such words from such people as yourself and Inky.

I think I am forced to agree on this with you. But I have no worries because of this. This was an experience just like any other and I will try to get as much out of it as I can in terms of personal growth. Already through this experience and an unrelated and non-sexual argument with another friend, I discovered that I take everything very personally. I tend to identify with peoples negative opinions or negative behaviour when directed at me, while I tend to brush aside positive attitude. Do not misunderstand. I love myself very much and I have high confidence, but this self love is only very recent (couple of months or less) so I suspect I will face a few setbacks in this area until self love really is natural to me and when it trully becomes my modus operandi.

Also I discovered that when people have negative attitude towards you should not blame yourself. All you can do is control how you behave. You may never understand the motives behind someones actiones so all you can do is be as kind, understanding and compassionate towards your fellow humans and forgive them their behaviour. You then control the situation by either trully accepting that person as he is or distancing yourself from him.

I am sorry if I went a little off topic here but I wanted to take the chance and share what I discovered about myself and maybe it will help someone who is in a similar “pickle”!

Thanks again!

Matic