Dear Jack:

I just discovered this post this morning- left this writing and came back just now after my long walk- I thought about you this morning: I thought I wonder if I unwittingly ecouraged you to get locked into the role of funny/ brilliant Jack and in so doing discouraged your futher postings, as if now you HAVE to be funny or brilliant. I was going to type you a note on a yesterday’s thread and I came across this thread. I think there is some validity then to my wonderings.

I am reading and can see that indeed you are a serious man AND you have a talent at humor AND you are often enough too anxious AND you have low self esteem… no this OR that, but all these things and more. More is the key.

Once in a while I SEE a person, doesn’t happen often. This kind of seeing is an emotional seeing. I saw you that way. I understand that you often think little of yourself (low self esteem)- but I see you as loveable and worthy- I see you that way, have no doubt in the reality of this seeing. I am privileged that way, not having your distorted beliefs about yourself.

Please be free to be YOU here, and I hope in other venues of life as well- to be you however you are at the moment. As long as you are not abusive to others- and you haven’t been- be serious at any one time, be funny at any other time, be brilliant, be stupid, be pittiful, be … anything you authentically are.

I am a few years older than you and it is only recently that I have SEEN my own self that way I mentioned here.

anita