I have similar experience and feeling exactly the same way as you do. Reply here if you saw this and we could find a way to talk. Your post is one year ago, I wonder how are you doing now. I am experiencing it now, I have a wonderful boyfriend but is very afraid to have sex because of my past. Hoping to hear from you, your depressed friend.
Though I run this site, it is not mine. It's ours. It's not about me. It's about us. Your stories and your wisdom are just as meaningful as mine. 