What, like ALL the time? Theres never a time in the outside world that you ever feel ‘huh I had a good day actually and felt alright in myself. Made a new friend too. ‘

I hear the laughter in your voice as you label yourself ‘fuck up. Fuck up.’ I’m curious as to what that laughter means. To read it, it makes me laugh with you and think ‘ha! I don’t believe you.’

You’ve just built yourself a wee cocoon (great word) around yourself as a safety blanket to protect you from having to try.

It’s like just not wanting to get out of bed.

I got mine too. That’s why I got such a high score.

But people don’t know that. When you meet them
No one knows you’re shy and scared. You don’t eveven know that they’re not riddled with self doubt but just want to push themselves to reach their hand out to shake and say ‘hi I’m caroline ‘ how do we know that your fear means you reject someone and that was their push to be brave and it makes them believe everything they ever told themselves is true and that person ignored me…. I went right off into a dream there . Apologies
my mantra is : well what would someone who wasn’t afraid right now do? Well.they’d … pick their head up a bit and smile and reach outtheir hand and say hi. Nice to meet you. Type stuff… ive applied thst too to being nervous of the underground rabbit warren… what would someone who was confident do on the tube?

Close flip top lid. Apologies