Hi there. Firstly, Im sorry for what’s happening with for family. As we go through life, obstacles occur when we least expect them, and can lead to many changes,some of which hurt us. Do NOT put yourself down. You are still here, alive. There are people who struggle day by day to just breath. So feel thankful for that and remind yourself that you are only human. Mistakes will be made and there will be regrets, and this goes for everyone. I feel your pain with abandoning your family and living in your own. I’m 17, and the thought if leaving my family scares me. But we all have to leave the nest at some point and throw our selves into the real world. But, I believe that you should first talk to your parents. Your mom seems stressed, and I’m sure any ounce of love can make a difference in her behavior. Let her know how you feel when she gets angry. Sometimes we do things without realizing how they affect others until we are called out on it. Then, remind her of how much you love her, and thank her for all she has given and done for you. Do the same with your father. Be sure to show your grandmother love as well. She has gone through a lot, and I’m sure that hearing from her grandson will make her very happy. Also, try searching for jobs and places where you can live. Doing this will get you on your way to becoming more independent and living on your own, and you CAN do it.