Yoda,

I don’t know you or all the particulars of your situation. What struck me is the title of this thread “What’s wrong with me?”. Each of us has an internal dialogue. Sometimes that dialogue is not kind, compassionate or loving. Sometimes it is critical, doubtful and hurtful. The questions we ask may influence the answers we receive. You’ve externally asked “what’s wrong with me?”. This toxic question supposes that there IS something wrong with you.

You may be in pain, your life may be in a valley, you may be going through a very rough time, but is there really something “wrong” with you? Would you consider being kinder to yourself? Would you consider loving yourself and accepting yourself just as you are? Would you embrace the broken, hurting you and offer him love and acceptance? Would you allow him to heal?

You seem like a sensitive and caring person. These are good qualities. Would you dare to value your internal qualities and realize that who you are on the inside is far more important than external appearances. Would you consider that you deserve to be loved by somebody who sees that in you and appreciates who you are as a person?

Be kind to yourself my friend.