”, prime example is today.. Have a day off and I’ve been moping in bed!! It’s not like me and I’m just a bit worried I thin”

you’re grieving. Everything is normal when you are grieving. Even ignoring the day and staying in bed is a form of healing. You are allowed to feel everything and I encourage that – good and bad, positive and moping, horrendous and hopeful. every feeling you are having is normal because you are having it.

this bit I totally related to -I ticked it all off my own list when my chap went
I am making positive changes:
Been around a month or so since I stopped smoking
Joined a gym and going for induction today – TICK. yep did that.
Changed my diet and eating habits to be more healthy – TICK – Did that
Joined a meetup group to make new friends along with my current ones – TICK – did that
Looking at taking up another hobby I used to again – TICK, me too
Bought a camera to indulge in my photography interests – er. no. but took up the guitar.-0 put it down again as I really can’t play.
Considering a dog for company as living in the countryside on your own is nice but its very isolated and quiet – I got a fatty cat.

The way I see it is that I (twist my logic) and celebrate that the sorrow I felt was a catalyst to me doing good for myself. at least at last I’m moving forward positively even if my heart hurts. One day I know I’ll look back – even as I am now – looking at a leaner, fitter image of the person I was when I was with him, a more self sufficient and more interesting person than I was then too even though my heart hurts occasionally for him,.

none of this pain and sorrow is wasted time
xx