Like a mirror… I had a textbook, fully diagnosed OCD, Jack, I was afraid of a million things. I heard a word, it scared me. I thought a thought, it scared me. I did thousands of rituals to keep away the dangers I feared. Numbers scared me, just mere thoughts, i was afraid I could make terrible things happen if I thought of those things. I was ruled by fear. Placing a black item over a red item scared me because black meant death, but then putting a red item over a black item can also be dangerous because red can mean blood. And hearing a disease word means it will happen to me. And the number four can be dangerous because i may know a child who is three who may not make it to four because the TV is on channel 4.

Call me crazy… My OCD is hardly there by the way, I mean the rituals, don’t do those anymore.

anita