Hello All,
I have been reading everything you guys have said all this week. I know I struggle with depression and it had rared its ugly head again. Thank you for all the kind suggestions and thoughts. I love the idea of pampering myself when others critize. I do agree with the presence of that very loud inner critic I have. I am slowing getting into my routine in Ireland. Joined a gym, walking out of work whenever I can early. I have also started reaching out to as many people as I can to get another job. What had frustrated me the most, outside of the mean boss, was the fact that I have no learning and mentoring at this job. I took a very low level job after my MBA( after working 10 years in the financial sector and making 6 figures) thinking I will learn about a new industry and work with a very successful CFO, instead, I do adminstrative and clerical job which no MBA will do for 30k. I feel belittled and unappreciaited but above all, I feel angry with myself for taking this position. Lucky for me, I am using this anger to network and put my resume out there. I will find a job that will give me mental satisfaction.

All I am battling now is the intense feeling of tell my boss to f**k off. I am going to use the letter technique where I write down everything I want to tell her. Read it the next day and burn or tear the paper.

Wish me luck everyone. And thank you so much for your insights.

S