Dear Amaranth:

We are here as a community to support you. Thanks for sharing your story.

I would start with taking a moment to breathe….the very essence of Buddhism is to live in the present moment. Pause and breathe. Enjoy your breath…it sounds like you are carrying a lot of responsibilities both working and taking care of your son…if we allow just a few minutes for ourselves to clear our mind & center our body back to our breath…we feel calm & stable…we feel alive again.

Putting the negative aside for the moment, can you share with us a moment in life where you experienced happiness? What was it like? What things do you like doing that makes you joyful? It could be as simple as perhaps watching your son smile or cooking a nice meal for your family…sometimes, we need to re-focus back on the simple things in life. If we are too caught up in the negative, we can easily spiral down and miss the small moments. Once you feel centered again, then you can reflect upon the past while staying grounded in the present.

I wish you the best of luck! Please feel free to share more of your experiences.

With a smile & lotus flower,
Jennifer