* The “curse,” the misfortune is that once you are an adult, no matter how much abuse and injustice you experienced as a child, no matter how unfair life has been for you, and it has been for me, no matter how crippled you are when you enter adulthood, as I have been, there is no one to help you. People die every day, un-helped. People drown in drugs and homelessness and disease and dysfunctions of all kind, every day, all over the world, and there is no help. And when people are lucky enough to get some help, often it is not… enough.

There is no way to avoid the unavoidable: YOU are the only one you can turn to for help.

No matter how anxious you are, how weak, how inexperienced, no matter how much you suffer, there is NO ONE out there that will say: “amaranth has suffered ENOUGH. Okay, I am satisfied, she suffered enough. amaranth has suffered so much, it is her time to be given a break.”

No, this is not the way it is. It is YOU. Take control over yourself and wisely, with patience, gentleness and empathy and with the understanding that the help you are looking for will not happen and if so, it will not be enough.

There is no one that can help you, really, but you.

anita