Dear Jack:

You wrote above: “I know when I’m getting overly depressed or anxious, the first thing that goes is my sense of humour. All those dark demons, seem so much darker, the future more hopeless, my problems more unsolvable.”

It does not HAVE TO be that you must get depressed or anxious again and again. There will be less and less of that if you walk the path of healing, of seeing more and more into what is and what was. Less and less, not in ways of distraction alone, but in progressive, ongoing improvement in baseline of well being.

You have to go back just enough into the past to get a few things straight, that is all. Go back into the past just enough so to extricate the little boy Jack held captive there.

I will try to rap it:

Into the past, see jack goes
into the past, to pick up a lonely boy
Into the past, see jack goes
where little boy jack is captive, sad and lonely
See jack goes, into the past
To see himself bullied, oh, scared boy jack
into the past to see jack, compliant, so says mom
into the past, there goes jack
back enough to see scared little boy jack

anita